Things to look forward to

Things have been looking up. Summer really just isn’t my season. I really think I’m always at my best during September, October, and November. My next downturn I’m sure will be just after New Year’s. I’m hoping it won’t be as severe as this year’s was but we’ll see.

I have a lot of fun things planned and I’m really excited. Tomorrow I am dyeing my hair black and red. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for several years. I should have done it in college when it was more acceptable to dye my hair funky colors but I was always concerned about looking professional so I never did. Now I really just want to get it out of my system so that when I do get into uniform, I won’t have any regrets about never doing it. I’m not looking forward to it 100% because bleach will need to be used but I know it’s going to look amazing.

I’m going to Seattle at the end of October for a few days. I’ll be going with Melissa and we’ll be visiting her brother Michael. The three of us practically grew up together but I haven’t seen Michael since before graduating high school. I’ve always wanted to visit Seattle. Even though I know it’ll be freezing, I have to at least put my feet in the Pacific Ocean. I want to see the Space Needle, and I think we’ll also be driving up to Vancouver to catch a Canuck’s game. I’ll have the chance to meet one of my penpals, Jake, which will be great. Also in October is Tough Mudder. I’m at the point now where I’m actively dreading it. I am just trying to convince myself that I can do it. My friend Corey who has a form of cerebral palsy completed one last year and is doing it again with me this year and I know if he can do it, then I certainly can. I’m trying to unlock myself from this constantly negative mindset. I keep defeating myself mentally and then beat myself up even more when I fail. I give myself zero chances. I’m starting to change that.

I also have two police exams in October—Nassau County Sheriff and NYS Trooper. I’m not worried about those. I just hope I don’t feel mentally drained at the end of them.

In November it will be my birthday on the 22^nd and then Corey, Kate, Kate’s sister, and myself are going to RAW at the Coliseum on the 25^th. It’ll be nice going as a group. Those shows are always really fun and it’ll be nice because I literally live 15 minutes away so I don’t have to worry about a train schedule or anything.

Back to work.